letting go?

What can you do when you always lose?
You have no choice but they make you choose.
You close up yourself, for a safe place.
The hurting inside, written all over my face.

I want to release, I want to let go!
I want to choose freedom and go with the flow!
You've asked and I've answered. I'm sorry. I lied.
And these lies in my life, will see that I'm tied.

Where do you go, to get some diresction,
When I can't even stand my own damn reflection?
I want to be there and support you the way,
But I find it hard, when you'll listen to nothing I say.

I love you, I do.  But I think that's the issue.
These negative feelilngs I just can't subdue.
The deception around, is of my own weave.
Maybe it's time that I take my own leave.